Darling Clementine

na na na na na na… not batman!

Michelle — Sat, 04 Feb 2012 17:44:30 +0000

It’s supposed to rain all day. That’s not cool. Or maybe it is, ha! I still won’t accomplish anything. Well, maybe I’ll clean the bathroom since The Roommate is insisting on having a Super Bowl party. I have to go to work on Monday; I don’t want to have to try to ignore 70 people in my living room screaming. I’m just going to leave the house anyway; I don’t care much for the people he hangs around. I’m sure they’re very nice people; if you can get past the snobbishness. I don’t care to make the effort (especially after a few years ago), so I’m just going to go elsewhere for a majority of the time. Somewhere I’ll be comfortable and can enjoy myself. Shouldn’t have to be uncomfortable in my own house, but my neuroses won’t let me get past anything. It’ll be much better than holing myself up in my bedroom. Whatever. I don’t care for the Super Bowl, really. Especially after this happened today:

When I woke up the scoreline was 1-1. Then a few minutes after I started watching all hell broke loose, ha ha! It was awesome. I may or may not have jumped around the room at one point. I love this team. I love them so much even though I want to strangle the piss out of ‘em sometimes! ha ha! Anyway, I should update this place more. I just haven’t been in the mood lately. I should start carrying a notebook or something. I have all of this crap rattling around in my head and by the time I get home, *poof*. Oh well, story of my life.

thought i heard you breathing at me

Michelle — Sat, 28 Jan 2012 16:01:27 +0000

I’ve made a commitment of sorts to have a birthday dinner with a woman at work I don’t even like most of the time. People seem to have a knack of “cornering” me when I’m alone and asking me things. ha! Sitting at my desk minding my own business and you creep over and ask me if I like Mexican food. Who knew that saying yes wasn’t going to end it. Damn it. Whatever, I’ve four weeks to either figure out a way to back out; or to just suck it up and fucking go and quit being a baby omg. I don’t know. We’ll see. Personally, I think it’s going to hinge on how many times in the next four weeks she stands near the end of my desk, staring at me & creeping me out. GO SIT AT YOUR DESK OMG. Having “nothing” to do doesn’t mean you can stand there and make my skin crawl. And you smell like booze. But, whatever. Okay, got all of that off my chest. Or, really, about half of it; but I’ll quit before I get ugly.

It’s a lovely day outside and I’ll be arsed if I can drag myself into it.

monday… yes

Michelle — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 00:15:17 +0000

Ugh, why are bad habits so hard to get rid of? Is it because they’re fun? ha ha! No, no, some of them definitely aren’t fun. Ah. I’ve 3 days left in my “month of no drink” and so far I’ve only failed 3 times. I’m quite proud of myself. I also think I’m going to keep going. The entire month of February and aim for failing no days.

I wish it would snow. We’ve gotten snow twice this season, but both times were back in November. Boo. I love snow, especially when I can stay home from work and play in it. Throw it at the dog. Sit around the house in my PJs and mainline hot cocoa. Fun times! Oh well, it’s not over yet, right? Maybe I’ll get my snow. Maybe I won’t, who knows? Maybe one day I’ll make sense. More than likely not!

I need to go grocery shopping. More than once a month. ha ha!

little bunny foo foo

Michelle — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 01:12:06 +0000

I’m sick and tired of pants. Well, yeah, no… I think it’s just jeans in particular. I dress nothing like my “normal” self when I go to work. Every single day it’s some variation on jeans/tshirt/trainers. That’s it. Very boring, very annoying. I think it ends up being that way because I work in an overgrown kindergarten class and don’t feel like being made fun of for being a “weirdo”. I’m still very touchy in my old age, about being made fun of. Probably because family members haven’t let up. I’ve gotten over it for the most part, but sometimes it just slips back in. I don’t know, whatever. That’s their deal.

I keep saying that I’m going to take some initiative, throw caution to the wind like normal, and show the effing hell up to work the way I want to; but, I always wuss out. Or wake up and say “fuck it”. I am not friends with 530 AM at all. A pox on your house 530. I’ll start off slowly one of these days. A scarf here, stupid hairdo there (ha!) and then pretty soon ANARCHY. ha ha!

Whatever. No, not whatever. I’ve gotta stop having that attitude. NOT WHATEVER, DAMN IT.

mathematical!

Michelle — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 00:42:37 +0000

Tomorrow is only Thursday. Yeah, yeah… it’s almost over; but I spent part of today thinking it was already Thursday. I was really disappointed around noon. ha ha! This week started off so crappy, that I”ll be seriously glad when it’s over. blah!!

Anyway, I need to organize my stuff. Bathroom drawers/cabinets, the hall closet. I’ve got stuff in no sort of order and really, in the case of the closet, kind of thrown around. The shelves in the closet are that wire racking crap and it drives me nuts. I’m sure there’s something I could put over them to cover the up the gaps & make storing stuff easier. I’ll check into that. I also need some bins or something. I just need less crap. ha! Yes. I’ll get started on that this weekend.

I should probably make a game plan. TO THE GAME PLANNERY! I’m deliriously tired, just go with it.

terrible, horrible, no good, very bad mood

Michelle — Tue, 10 Jan 2012 00:28:37 +0000

The headache set in 30 minutes after I woke up. Didn’t cease until about an hour ago. Everyone and their mothers annoyed the crap out of me. My coworker is apparently keeping up the stupid and almost screwed us. I fixed that crisis. YOU’RE WELCOME!!! I can’t get the supplies needed to properly do my job. I talk until I’m blue in the face and no one friggin’ cares. Tomorrow is going to involve some more groveling. I’m drowning over here and have no competent back-up. But, let’s threaten a write-up because you’re behind on something. Squeeze me? Oh, and I almost walked out after an hour.

The place makes me physically ill. And I spent all day fighting back tears. Something’s gotta give, I just don’t know what.

On a happier note… Thierry motherfuckin’ Henry! (And I missed it!)

just roll me over there, i’m cool

Michelle — Sat, 07 Jan 2012 19:31:31 +0000

Small steps. I can’t even get motivated enough for that. ha! Everything is so cluttered. EVERYTHING! I just don’t know where to start. I guess that area in front of the book case would be a good start. But, no motivation. There’s laundry to be done and dishes colonizing in the sink; and yet, I just don’t care. Speaking of clutter, this post popped up in my feed reader yesterday as I was moaning to no one in particular about having too much stuff. Maybe I should take it as a sign and get moving. It’s only 1:30 and I’ve got all day tomorrow.

We’ll see. Right now I’m just going to sit and wonder why the hell I just ate an entire pizza by myself. ‘CUZ I’M A MUTHA-EFFIN’ GENIUS!!!! Don’t be jealous, ha!

adventures of dick & jane

Michelle — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 23:57:44 +0000

I need to read more this year. And cook more. Definitely cook more. I collect recipes from all over & who knows where and rarely ever try them out. Even if it’s just one new dish on the weekend or something. That, or I’ll have to stop eating. No ifs, ands, or buts. Try new recipes or starve to death.

I used to be able to start/finish a book in no longer than a week. I don’t know what has happened. Lazy, I guess. I have a few books sitting around half-read that I should probably finish. I also just bought 2 new books… I clearly need help. ha! I do, however, refuse to finish reading a certain book I own. I started reading this bastard, hell, 10 years ago. I think I may have finally gotten to the halfway point a few years ago. Why? THIS BOOK IS SO DAMN BORING OMG WHAT THE HELL! I’m not even kidding. It’s sad, because it could be such an interesting book; but, no. I should probably just individually buy all the books it references and be done with it. ha ha! Oh book, y u so boring?

i love kitties!

Michelle — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 01:41:13 +0000

I have a feeling I’m going to be quitting my job before this year’s over… or totally begun. With or without somewhere else to go. Sneaking suspicion. This season may kill me. Whatever, it’s just that kind of place. A tiny, insignificant blip in my life. I certainly don’t miss it when I’m not there. We’ll see how this goes; but so far, not so good.

This is totally not where I pictured myself at this age. I’m not sure quite where I did picture myself; but, I know it wasn’t this. One day I’ll find all of those dreams I used to have and perhaps put them to use. Maybe that’ll be sooner than I expect? Who knows. 3 months give/take… we’ll see. WE’LL SEE. Yeah, I’m screaming, wanna fight about it? ha ha!

I’d say “your move, universe”, but really the ball’s in my court, right? RIGHT? SCREAMY!! WOOO!

happy new year!

Michelle — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 17:25:36 +0000

Well, well, well, 2012… we meet again. Wait…

Photo source: Happy New Year! by junkoseven on Flickr

Hello, happy new year! I didn’t quite make it to midnight myself, but I’m old, set in my ways. ha ha! Or just ingested enough caffeine yesterday to take down a woolly mammoth and crashed about 9:30. Look! See! I made it to 9:30. That’s a feat in my world of going to bed at 8:00. I was however awoken at midnight by a bomb going off against my house. Or neighbours shooting fireworks, whatever. I just know it sounded like something was beating against the house. Dog didn’t bark, so I guess we were safe to take on another day. And, I woke up so… let the chaos commence!

Anyway, have a little end o’ the year survey thingie I’ve “borrowed” from somewhere; everywhere, really. Have a happy and safe new year!

01. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?

02. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn’t make any resolutions and I don’t think I’ll make any this year, either. I haven’t done so in quite some time. I don’t see the point in it, really. I never stuck to them or even came close to accomplishing them when I did make them. Instead I’ll just make little goals throughout the year and see what happens.

03. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My sister-in-law. Tiny Niece was born in June.

04. Did anyone close to you die?
My grandpa & my cousin. (Ow, that hurt to type.)

05. What countries did you visit?
Sadly, none.

06. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
Cojones. ha! No, but seriously, I’d like to have a little confidence in myself.

07. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

08. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I really, really don’t know. The past year was kind of crappy.

09. What was your biggest failure?
See above.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nope.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My Real Madrid (last season) Champions League jersey. ha ha! Hmm, no, I don’t really know. Pretty, pretty purple jersey, .

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
I think the crown has to once again go to my mother, and extend to her side of the family. I just really don’t get those people. Being that way is nothing to be proud of.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Bills, clothes.

15. What events did you get really, really, really excited about?
I went to the beach for the first time in forever (too bad I was also in town for Grandpa’s funeral, ha!); my lovely Arsenal seriously turned the season around, I love this team; other than, I don’t know. I don’t leave my house much. I’ll remedy that this year…

16. What song will always remind you of 2011?

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner
iii. richer or poorer? Slightly richer,

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Slept, left the house, ditched some people

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Work (at least where I do), hung out with jackasses, stressed over insignificant stuff

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I don’t really celebrate Christmas. I spent it around family, though.

21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
Ugh, I hate the phone. Texting, though… probably my sister.

22. Did you fall in love in 2011?
Only with people & things I can’t have, ha ha! Story of my life.

23. How many one-night stands?
Zero.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
I don’t watch much TV; so probably Adventure Time, ha ha!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Yep. Though maybe not “hate”… severely dislike would probably be more accurate.

26. What was the best book you read?
Oh deary me, I don’t think I read much this past year. *sad face*

27. What was your greatest musical discovery or rediscovery?

28. What did you want and get?

29. What did you want and not get?
Oh so many things.

30. What were your favourite films of this year?
I’ve seen not one new film out this past year. I don’t go to the theater much. Other people, ridiculous prices, lackluster fare, and whatnot.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Not a damn thing and that really wasn’t cool. Oh well, no one cares about your birthday unless you’re 3, ha ha! I turned 31.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Work burning to the ground. Barring that, the GM & his “girlfriend” getting fired. THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS. I should have been born rich.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Dress not like yourself at work; come home, feel just right.

34. What kept you sane?
I don’t know if anything did. Especially a few months ago. Crack-up!

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most/least?
Hmm, I don’t know; quite a few.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
I don’t know; they all pretty much piss me off in their own ways, ha ha!

37. Whom did you miss?
I really, really missed my grandma this year; I don’t know why.

38. who was the best new person you met?

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011:
Stop listening to other people.

40. Do you have any lost feelings of others?
Eh.

41. Quote a song that sums up your year:
No clue.