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Michelle — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 01:12:06 +0000

I’m sick and tired of pants. Well, yeah, no… I think it’s just jeans in particular. I dress nothing like my “normal” self when I go to work. Every single day it’s some variation on jeans/tshirt/trainers. That’s it. Very boring, very annoying. I think it ends up being that way because I work in an overgrown kindergarten class and don’t feel like being made fun of for being a “weirdo”. I’m still very touchy in my old age, about being made fun of. Probably because family members haven’t let up. I’ve gotten over it for the most part, but sometimes it just slips back in. I don’t know, whatever. That’s their deal.

I keep saying that I’m going to take some initiative, throw caution to the wind like normal, and show the effing hell up to work the way I want to; but, I always wuss out. Or wake up and say “fuck it”. I am not friends with 530 AM at all. A pox on your house 530. I’ll start off slowly one of these days. A scarf here, stupid hairdo there (ha!) and then pretty soon ANARCHY. ha ha!

Whatever. No, not whatever. I’ve gotta stop having that attitude. NOT WHATEVER, DAMN IT.

just roll me over there, i’m cool

Michelle — Sat, 07 Jan 2012 19:31:31 +0000

Small steps. I can’t even get motivated enough for that. ha! Everything is so cluttered. EVERYTHING! I just don’t know where to start. I guess that area in front of the book case would be a good start. But, no motivation. There’s laundry to be done and dishes colonizing in the sink; and yet, I just don’t care. Speaking of clutter, this post popped up in my feed reader yesterday as I was moaning to no one in particular about having too much stuff. Maybe I should take it as a sign and get moving. It’s only 1:30 and I’ve got all day tomorrow.

We’ll see. Right now I’m just going to sit and wonder why the hell I just ate an entire pizza by myself. ‘CUZ I’M A MUTHA-EFFIN’ GENIUS!!!! Don’t be jealous, ha!

i love kitties!

Michelle — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 01:41:13 +0000

I have a feeling I’m going to be quitting my job before this year’s over… or totally begun. With or without somewhere else to go. Sneaking suspicion. This season may kill me. Whatever, it’s just that kind of place. A tiny, insignificant blip in my life. I certainly don’t miss it when I’m not there. We’ll see how this goes; but so far, not so good.

This is totally not where I pictured myself at this age. I’m not sure quite where I did picture myself; but, I know it wasn’t this. One day I’ll find all of those dreams I used to have and perhaps put them to use. Maybe that’ll be sooner than I expect? Who knows. 3 months give/take… we’ll see. WE’LL SEE. Yeah, I’m screaming, wanna fight about it? ha ha!

I’d say “your move, universe”, but really the ball’s in my court, right? RIGHT? SCREAMY!! WOOO!

happy new year’s eve!

Michelle — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 17:17:39 +0000

Should I make some resolutions? Nah! I haven’t done that in years. Never stick to ‘em, so why bother? Instead I’ll just set some small goals. If I accomplish them, great. If not, keep trying; you’ve got all year.

A person I know I wants me to hang tonight. Ring in the new year in some way. I’m still mulling it over. I don’t particularly want to hang out with this person. They’re the disrespectful jerk mentioned a couple of posts ago. I’m tired of being around this person; but they seem to be the only one who wants to hang around me these days. ha ha! They’ll be the subject of another topic I need to breech this year.

I don’t know what I”m going to do. I need to make some new friends, but honestly, I’m just terrible at it. I think every friend I have I’ve met through a mutual friend. That’s one way, right? I don’t know, whatever. Maybe I’ll work on that, too, in the new year. Or maybe I’ll just keep sitting here like a loser, .

If you celebrate tonight, please be safe. Happy New Year!